You know, at 20, I really dont think its natural to think about killing yourself daily, I often plan entire events, but I never think about ACTUALLY doing them, I Ache and have inherited bad joints and bones, I wake up every morning not wanting to get out of bed, because there's no point to it. I really wish someone would notice, I dont know how to get help. I am unable to be "Happy", I put on a smile and I pretend, my whole life is a wish and a lie. Makes me think if one really bad day is going to come along and well, I dont think i'll be able to control myself and I will loose all control. It's Happened in the past. And, I just know its going to happen again, I can feel it.