Sunday, October 18, 2009
You know, at 20, I really dont think its natural to think about killing yourself daily, I often plan entire events, but I never think about ACTUALLY doing them, I Ache and have inherited bad joints and bones, I wake up every morning not wanting to get out of bed, because there's no point to it. I really wish someone would notice, I dont know how to get help. I am unable to be "Happy", I put on a smile and I pretend, my whole life is a wish and a lie. Makes me think if one really bad day is going to come along and well, I dont think i'll be able to control myself and I will loose all control. It's Happened in the past. And, I just know its going to happen again, I can feel it.
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Jordan, I want to say something here. I just read this and it's alarmed me. If you want to talk to someone who's been through experiences like this before, contact me. My e-mail is eatingthedinosaur @ gmail. com. We can get together for coffee if you'd like. Seriously, don't allow yourself to feel like you're alone. You're not. And I'm more than willing to be there for you.
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Happy Birthday Jord. Miss you.
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